Day 153: Who Creates The Subservient Woman? continued

Please note:  Blogs: Day 147-152 are relevant to this post.

Thought:  I’m not good enough

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to become the ‘I’m not good enough’ character in reaction to a non-response from another or what I perceive to be a negative response from another.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to think, when someone  does not respond to me/notice me, that I am insignificant because I ASS-u-Me they are ignoring me and think I am insignificant, thereby completely victimizing myself and following another instead of directing myself/standing as myself but waiting for their response to validate me/give me purpose instead of validating myself in that moment.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to react in fear, anger, blame, judgement, self-judgement and self-punishment when another person does not respond to me and to allow these negative energies to possess me. In that, I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to go into the positive energies of relief, validation, ease, feeling  a false sense of stability if they should respond at a later time.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to engage in internal conversation/backchat like: he/she thinks it’s ok to ignore me because I’m insignificant/I’m a failure/I’m not as good as the others/I will die /I’m not going to make it/my work is not as good as the others/I don’t do enough/I don’t do things right/I’m not that smart/I’m not thorough.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to then experience physical body reactions of :  a severe welling up in my solar plexes-reacting like I’ve been attacked-like a ball of  anxiety, tightening of my shoulders and upper back, clenching of my jaw, all this resulting my body aches and extreme uneasiness causing tension and stress throughout my body.

When and as I see myself going into the ‘I’m not good enough’ character because of a non-response or a response I thought was negative from another, I pull myself out of my mind of thought and back down to earth, I use my breath to stabilize myself and remind myself no one can create my reaction BUT ME and that is the part I am responsible for. I also realize I tend to ‘jump to conclusions’ moving too quickly in my mind and need to slow down and consider my every thought/word /deed, as in stabilize myself here and then assess/speak/direct the situation in common sense and self-honestly, considering all involved equally. In that , I also see I need to stop all judgements and assumptions and look at what is real and my part in it and go from there.

When and as I see myself going into polarizing energy emotions, depending upon how the situation turns out-gets left or resolved- I stop myself and bring myself back here, to the physical and deal with the situation in reality, as energy is not required and only depletes me. I now see/realize/understand I have been dependent upon the acceptance and approval from others-usually men but sometimes women in authority positions- to tell me how to feel, as depending upon the interaction I am : happy or sad/high or low/good enough or a loser/will live or die.  This is no longer acceptable to me to give someone, outside of myself, such power/authority.

When and as I see myself participating in nasty backchat/internal conversation around this issue I stop, I breathe and bring my awareness out of my mind and back to here, to the physical world, as I now see/realize/understand I am all alone up there in my mind of chatter-it is isolating and dangerous as there is no reference or check with reality, it is based on my past experiences/memories from my past and not based on reality today/here, I have no right to judge another as it is obviously what I think AS IT CAME FROM INSIDE OF ME therefore it exist within me and so is my issue to deal with, but it is quite useless to worry/obsess about this point as it is better/common sense to just ask the person and see if they have some assistance/support they can offer if they feel I have an area that needs attention/improvement.

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Day 152: Who CREATES the Subservient Woman?

Please read the previous posts, day 147-151, for context to this blog.  Continuing…

So, how do I practically walk the change/the solution, being a new relationship, one of total responsibility , within the word ‘creator’?

 Self-Corrective Statements and Self-Corrective Application:

When and as I see myself going into blame within the current financial situation of my life-which is a consequence of my past action or inaction- I stop and bring myself back to breath, to here, as I now see/realize/understand I am the creator of my life/existence as I am capable of making changes (and I have done this) to my income, so becoming financially independent, I have for the most part taken care of  the debt I accumulated throughout my life, I have an equal partnership within my marriage today whereby I am responsible for most of the household duties and contribute  some income and my partner makes most of the financial contribution, I have all I need and no longer am plagued by want/desires, I am grateful for all I have and realize billions of people/animals/nature’s many species suffer from lack due to the inequality of the current world systems and I am contributing to bringing about a world which will share the resources in a way that is best for all.

When and as I see myself creating the consequence of self-harm/self-victimization, by reacting to a memory, specifically the memory of my father saying ‘Sandy always tries so hard, even when she knows she won’t win’  ( my dad was referring to a running race when I was in primary school), I stop I breathe and bring my awareness back to the physical, to here, as I now see/realize/understand I do not have to allow this memory to define me, it holds no power over me except what I decide in each moment to give it, my father did not mean I would never win-that was my reaction and I have used it as an excuse to ‘not try’/give up at times in my life- and therefore my responsibility, I actually did think I had the chance to win and do not allow myself any longer to give up before I even try something/start something new because of fear of failure, I cannot be a creator if I allow fear and memories define who I am here.

When and as I see myself reacting with the emotions of fear, anger, resentment, and blame because I have given my authority/power away to another, I stop and remind myself I am the authority in my life/I am the moving force that is breathing/speaking/doing and thus the creator and no one else, I also realize these emotions create the consequence of leading me into non-action and so depression/apathy, thus I cannot grow/expand/learn and apply/give and share with others. I state clearly, No,this is no longer who I am, I commit me to change’ and carry on with the task before me.

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Day 149: My Relationship with the Word ‘Creator’ 3

Please read the previous two posts, day 147/148, for context to this blog.

I forgive myself for not realizing I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I am not the creator of myself and my world and thus I am not responsible because everything is being done TO me, instead of AS me (so living in re-action versus being the directive force)  as who I am in every  thought, word and deed .

I forgive myself for not realizing I have accepted and allowed myself to give the ultimate authority -the author/the living word- over myself, as my mind/beingness/body  within and my physical circumstances without- to a male figurehead either in the sky as in god/universe or in my life as in husband/boss/father/etc.

In that, I forgive myself for not realizing I have accepted and allowed myself to hope he is benevolent as he is the decision maker whether I live or die, how I live and die, how others live and die, so I am helplessly at the whim of this creator and resigned to just go through the motions, ‘make the best of it’ -this life of no control-robotic and depressed.

Thus, I forgive myself for not realizing I have accepted and allowed myself to then believe that if this creator, god or male authority figure, rejects me, I am ‘doomed to death’ so I better damn well please him/suck up to him/try to be good enough for him or else! In that, I forgive myself for not realizing I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I cannot take care of myself on my own-stand on my own financially and emotionally, as well within my agreement with my husband, to think my contribution financially and homemaker duties are not enough when it is clearly working/agreed upon/equal AND within my online course, that my contributions are not enough, when I am facing myself each day, breath by breath, and will do more as I am able, being in a process.

I forgive myself for not realizing I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in the following emotions and feelings around my relationship and associations to the world ‘creator’ :  fear of death/fear of homelessness/fear of poverty/fear of exposure-cold/fear of loneliness, anger, resentment, blame, self-blame, less than/inferiority, helplessness, hopelessness, greed, self-importance/vanity/narcissism, gratefulness, awe, respect/love.

In that, I forgive myself for not realizing I have accepted and allowed myself to project my fear of failure-not good enough character/fear of death/arrogance/gratitude onto a being-real or imagined-other than myself so I don’t have to face myself in self-responsibility as the creator of my life and my world but am more comfortable externalizing the consequences of my every thought, word, and deed throughout my life, onto another.

I forgive myself for not realizing I have accepted and allowed myself to create massive consequence around relationship and associations with how I have lived the word ‘creator’ throughout my life, some of which are the following:  I spent much of my adult life concerned with my own self-interest/religion of self thinking, within my story of Sandy, I did not have/needed a cottage, wanting fame and fortune through songwriting (thought this was what my ‘higher power’ wanted for me but it was just my mind/pre-programming), somewhat obsessed with looks/image as a woman, fashion, extravagant home decor because I allowed myself to be directed by greed and superficiality.  Another consequence is that I put myself at a disadvantage financially,emotionally and mentally in life by relying on luck, hope, romantic love-dependency, god’s good grace-prayers answered, chance, dependency upon family assuming I was not the creator of the circumstances/events in my life (I realize within the world systems some of our circumstances beyond our control in physical reality) because I did not trust my own self /common sense in that I would be better off taking control, as much as I was able to, within different events happening throughout my life.

Another consequence, due to my relationship and associations within the word ‘creator’ is that I closed my eyes (to some degree-not completely) to the suffering of others and did not ‘love my neighbor as myself’ and ‘give as I would like to receive’ so fed into the material world by not speaking out about abuse and purchasing products in which animals/people/the plant kingdom/the oceans were being abused and depleted.  Why?  Because I did not experience first hand their suffering, I could ignore it by not reading about it/not watching the news and remain in my bubble/comfort zone pretending everything was fine in the world because everything was mostly fine in my comfortable world.  Another consequence is that I suffered horribly, by living in the past and blaming, with mental illness and alcoholism as I could not, at the time, see any other ‘answer’ to the emotional pain I was facing than attempt to escape what ‘fate had dealt me’ by going inward into fantasy/prayer/spirituality and then music writing and drinking alcohol and isolating.

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Day 148: Taking Responsibility for My Relationship with the word ‘Creator’ 2

‘Forgive them father, for they know not what they do.’   OMG, what have I done? Surely I did not do this, I am a good person, I care…don’t  I? ‘

I forgive myself for not realizing I have accepted and allowed myself to completely separate myself from this word ‘creator’ as if it exists out there somewhere and thus separated/abdicated any and all responsibility toward this word and all the associations I hold within me, toward this word.

I forgive myself for not realizing I have accepted and allowed myself to associate the words: power, bible, father, universe, god, higher power, savior, birth, death, pain, disease, suffering, nature, animals, ocean, sun, moon, stars, space, beauty, flower, miracle, impossible, human, body and the hierarchical polarities of greater/lesser, powerful/weak, victim/victor, winner/loser, beginning/end, birth/death, war/peace, boss/dependent-worker   to the word ‘creator‘.

I forgive myself for not realizing I have accepted and allowed myself not consider myself the creator of the extensive amounts of abuse that exist in the world in relation to:  purchasing make up that has been created through cruel experimentation on animals, through passing on ‘the sins of the father’ by not being aware of my every thought/word/deed while I was raising my children and I thus raised them ‘in my image and likeness’, by sleep walking my way through life-unaware of my self-interest- and thus participating as ‘creator’ in massive inequality within income/healthcare/education/housing conditions of the people around me and the world at large.

In that, I forgive myself for not realizing I have accepted and allowed myself to want to hang onto/desire to keep my relationship to my comfort and thus have not been willing to face the changes required, firstly in my inner world, to change me, because I consider it ‘hard work’/uncomfortable to change, so I resist letting go of my ego, as in my personality of memories, emotions, feelings  and rather stay stagnant because it is the ‘devil I know’.

I forgive myself for not realizing I have accepted and allowed myself to fear ‘the creator’ as in it had the power to give me life and then at some later date, take it away and then blame this creator for this cruel and unfair position it put it’s little creation in, being me!

In that, I forgive myself for not realizing I have accepted and allowed myself to associate all men, in any kind of authority position in my life, real or imagined authority,  to the ‘creator’ so that if they rejected me/left me/did not approve of me it feels like a death or like I will die/they are killing me/destroying me and then I blame them, as in they have done me wrong so I right to blame them, I did my best.

I forgive myself for not realizing I have accepted and allowed myself to then participate in all sorts of nasty backchat/inner conversation in which I first abdicate any responsibility and then go into self-blame/self-loathing/punishment/judgement, so from one polarity to the other, of some of the following: birth and death is a stupid design, whoever designed the mind is stupid and irresponsible as it malfunctions easily and is cruel, god does not love /take care of everyone obviously as millions stave and suffer so is not a benevolent force/being, I don’t trust the creator and I don’t trust this world but I’m helpless against death so I have no choice (powerless) so I’ll try to do the ‘right’ thing… how dare he judge me as unworthy/I don’t count/I can be discarded/I”m forgettable/I’m not special/I’m not worth keeping around, he thinks I’m not good enough, he thinks I’m pretty enough but not very intelligent, he ignores me… maybe he’s right, I’ll be alone if I’m rejected by him, how will I get along/cope in this world without him, I could die/die young/be poor/not enjoy life without him…maybe he is right, what did I do/say wrong, if only I had done x/said x, why am I such a loser/failure, I didn’t do enough for him, I’m not good enough for him.

In that,  I forgive myself for not realizing I have accepted and allowed myself to, during my years when beLIEved in a ‘higher power’/love and light, participate in backchat/inner conversation of the nature of some of the following:  it’s ok there is a loving design, its none of your business the business of life (lol, makes no sense to me now), do not question just have faith, god/universe loves us unconditionally, there is a plan, it’s all a loving plan, everyone is here to learn lessons, it’ll make sense when I die AND all of the self-depreciating talk above.  However, (during that period of my life) I was either wrought with insecurities and dependency on my first husband, or drinking alot , or into the AA  (alcoholics anonymous) higher power idea so not self-empowered at all and was always searching for answers, until I found the Desteni Message and DIP Course!  So, this love and light inner talk did not assist and support me to stop the self-blame/judgement/punishment and help me stand on my on two feet and  stop living from the starting point of the past-it actually kept me in an unequal/enslaved/dependent relationship on a creator outside of myself.

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Day 147: Taking Responsiblity for my Relationship to the word ‘ Creator ‘

In today’s post I am deconstructing the word ‘creator’ and examining my relationship to, and responsibility toward, how I live this word.

When I consider the word ‘creator’ my mind goes to ‘god’, the higher force/being that is responsible for bringing about the existence of earth and all it’s inhabitance. Whatever that power is, I suppose I have defined it as ‘the almighty/omnipotent one/the ultimate authority’ and I was just the blade of grass/the child of this power greater than I and therefore at it’s mercy. I ‘hoped‘ it was a benevolent force and that if I ‘try’ to be a good person (doing the odd random act of kindness unto another) and eat sensibly I would be spared it’s wrath and enjoy a relatively easy life and not suffer too much and go somewhere ‘better’ when I die.

I assumed the creator was more than a single entity, yet I ‘pictured’ the creator as the ultimate ‘father’/the godly figure in a long robe and white beard/or a massive white light or something similar.   Have to admit, I thought of the creator as a male figure head/the boss to whom I should or must submit/try to please/be accepted/in his good books and so my relationship/associations  to this ‘creator’ was much the same as  my relationship/associations to all the males throughout my life who I had any kind of authority issue, imaginary or real, with. So, all bosses, my father, my father’s friends/associates, older male relatives,any leader of an organization I was part of, any head of a group of people I was associated with-be a church or school, sports teams, drama club, etc. and of course husband.

It is not so much I thought these ‘male authority figures’ were better or smarter than I , in fact, I often was quite smug, judgmental, harsh, condescending in my assessment of the male authority figures in my life.  I dealt with the dilemma of being at their mercy/under their authority with an attitude like, ‘well, they are quite stupid but there is nothing I can do about it so I will submit and do the best I can to not anger/upset this mean and ignorant man and get along as best I am able, until I can leave/be free of them’.  Often, with bosses I had some mad crush on them at some point within our association and would fantasize about being with them, so although I was fearful and submissive I was definitely attracted to this authority/power and would sexualize  (sexual eyes) this attraction. Related to this would be the fantasy of marriage and being financially taken care of , so creating a dependency. So there was, in these cases, an attraction-pull and a revulsion-pushing away, very polarizing forces.

Well, this is interesting/reveling, I started writing about my relationship to the word ‘creator’ and am now writing about sex, money, and dependency on A POWER GREATER THAN MYSELF= GIVING A MAN IN MY LIFE AUTHORITY OVER ME, which, I realize,  is not their fault by the way .  Within my relationships with the opposite sex during my lifetime (with the exception of my marriage today) there has also existed the ‘ownership’ issue, being that this guy had to stay with me ( I owned this guy) or I would just die.

To continue in the next post, deconstructing the word ‘creator‘ and applying self-forgiveness and a self-corrective application, in which I write a statement of how to walk/live this word, from the starting point of self-responsibility.

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Day 143: ‘Impossible’ Taking Responsibility for my Relationship to Words 3

Please read the previous 2 posts for context to this blog .   From Day 141:  The next word I will examine and deconstruct, in relation to my eyesight is ‘impossible’. Interesting word on many fronts, it is actually an end point, a final bowing out, an admission stating, ‘I am powerless to change this’ , like a death.  Only thing is, when I hang on to the belief that x is impossible within my ‘story of Sandy’, meaning my mind of thought/feelings/emotions, I am thrust into relating to the word from ‘her perspective’ ,so this then becomes  my relationship to the word-thus it is wrought with helplessness, hopelessness, dis-empowerment. It is basically a giving up,  like a permission to give up because x is impossible after all, no point trying you will fail.  Who says?  The past says so, memories  say so, information and knowledge from school and books says so,  the intellectual says so , the elite and corporation and government says so…

Self-Commitment Statements and Self-Corrective Application Statements

Thought Dimension: 

 The Thought  ‘This is useless, I am being a fool again, I cannot heal my eyes, it is impossible!’

When and as I see myself going into/participating within this thought pattern around the word ‘impossible’ I immediately stop myself and bring my awareness back to the physical, to breath, as I now understand within the forgiving I am gifting myself in a spontaneous act to be possible, as in for-before and giving-giving to myself, and so state, ‘no more do I allow my awareness, my who I am, to be defined within/as such a word, as I am in a process of changing impossible to possible within changing the governing principals of the eye, which controls  the flexibility of the crystalline lens, from diminishment to expansion/correction, in every here moment.

Fear Dimension:

When and as I see myself reacting within/as fear around the word ‘impossible’, fearing the total/partial loss of my eyesight, I stop myself and state, ‘No, I will not go into a reaction of fear’ and I breathe and focus what is real, here within the physical as I now realize the fear in itself  is quite useless (in this case) as it does not change reality, I do not know if my eyes/physical will respond ‘in kind’ to this process-whether I will ‘succeed’ – but either way I am learning/expanding my understanding of myself as a physical unit made up of billions of  parts (organs/cells/tissue/blood/etc.) and we are ‘in this together’ and so an increased awareness will/is occurring, which can only be beneficial.

Imagination Dimension:

When and as I see myself going into my mind of imagination around  the word ‘impossible’, with all it’s relationships and associations of failure/catastrophe/giving up/loss of eyesight/aging, I pull myself out of my mind of moving pictures and back down to earth, get grounded, I  feel my feet on the ground and take a deep breath reminding myself I am a physical being, as I now understand nothing changes when I am lost in my mind of imagination/moving pictures, I am putting myself forward in time or back in time and not here where my life is, I cannot effectively direct myself within my day/move/get things done  when I ‘m lost in thought/imagination.  In that , I also realize  when I imagine something as impossible, I am instructing  all of the cells within my physical body and of my eyes the same-impossible- as we are all parts of the same unit, lastly, I now understand I have created a relationship of finality around this word/an end point and I commit to say ‘no’ to this association and to move myself within my day and my world, to create a world of equality and cooperation within, as my mind/body/beingness, and without as in the world systems, to create a new world system that is best for all, through Equal Money Capitalism.

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Day 128: Solutions for the Causes of Homelessness

Please refer to the previous post, ‘Day 127: Looking at the ‘Why’ behind the Causes of Homelessness’  for context to this blog.

From the previous post:  PROBLEM:

Homeless ‘mole people’, discovered in underground tunnels and shanty homes living in squalor, in Kansas City Missouri, are evicted. I say this is the problem and not the people themselves because, they are human beings and not ‘an eye soar’ a ‘difficult situation’.  We have become a society/world that places the value of money above the value of life, all living beings-SO THAT IS THE REAL PROBLEM.

In an article from Buzzle  http://www.buzzle.com/articles/homelessness-in-the-united-states.html the author states the main causes of  homelessness as: High Cost of Housing, Unemployment and Low Income, High Medical Costs, Drugs and Alcoholism, Lesser Government Assistance.

SOLUTION:  

‘What we suggest is to have a platform established that will allow for human beings to take a break from the madness. This can be done through establishing an equal money-system, whereby every human being on earth will have a right to an equal unconditional income – from birth to death. The equal money-system would be aimed at removing fear and survival from the equation called ‘life’. This will establish a level of equality in which we can start to learn what it means to live together and how to trust each other. Simplistically, money is the tool the system is using to perpetuate its control over human beings. We say money can be used for good – if we understand how it works and then change the rules. Then we can come to a new agreement about how we want to live, where everyone is equally taken into consideration.’   http://equalmoney.org/wiki   FAQ: Why an Equal Money System

High Cost of Housing:  So EMC as an alternative way of distributing resources. A way where every family/human being  is guaranteed to have a house. It will be a massive undertaking as so many live in poverty now. Within an equal money society the need to all populate together in cities (to find employment) will not be as great (eventually disappear) as smaller self sufficient communities will be set up. ‘Community participation will be the most common form of any kind of development: the community will assist when a new house needs to be built, when a road needs to be repaired and so on. Professions will change from being specialized skills to universal skills, with each person having an understanding of how to construct a shelter suited to the particular area they are in (this will be learned by each person in their basic Education). There will be some people who will choose to focus their learning on things such as construction or engineering who will be available as additional support.  Al done with the understanding that what is good for the community as a whole is good for each member. Each community member is interdependent on every other member to the benefit of all.  DIY (with the help of your neighbours) will become the norm since each person will be able to build their own furniture, fix their own appliances, put up their own fences, install their own irrigation…Education will play a major role in the self-sufficiency of this housing concept, so the government will need to send trainers to teach communities how to build in the initial stages. Land will not be “owned” by anyone or anything – it will simply be cared for. Any disputes regarding usage that may arise will be settled in a community meeting where the most practical solution will be found and agreed upon by all the members.’   For more details go here:   http://equalmoney.org/wiki/Housing

Unemployment and Low Income:   ‘One of the current problems is unemployment. Employment is the means through which each one acquires the means with which to sustain themselves – as, in return for one’s contribution, one receives an income. Therefore – full employment is not a negotiable subject – because if one is not employed, one loses all means of supporting oneself.  At the moment – capital is referred to as intermediary goods – such as machinery and warehouses. Within Equal Money Capitalism – capital will refer to Life and include resources and people. Therefore – to value capital, means to value Life – and thus, all capital and all Life should be valued equally. For this – full employment is again a necessity…’  Read more:  http://economistjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2012/12/day-162-equal-money-capitalism-way.html#.UW2UAMoSQzA

High Medical Costs:  ‘Equal Money implies that everyone has the same right to life and that everyone bears equal value as life. Within an Equal Money System Health Care will be available for all equally. No person will get more Health care than another. Each person will submit a request based on their medicinal and health care requirements, which will then be produced for each on a monthly basis. How this impacts within the health industry is that the health industry will submit that which it requires on a monthly basis and it is restocked on a monthly basis. Thus as an individual, when you go to the hospital / clinic, what you require to maintain your health is already available – which you will be provided with…’   Read more:  http://equalmoney.org/wiki/Health_Care

Drugs and Alcoholism:  ‘... Once the facts and effects of alcohol are researched thoroughly and are known to all we will all agree on the decision that alcohol should be outlawed. This is an act of intervention/prevention that is best for all rather than deliberate promotion of abuse based on profit as is in the current economic system. In an EM society people who have developed addiction problems will be assisted immediately and effectively. Eventually technology will allow one’s DNA to be read and according to the output of a person’s DNA the person’s physical-chemical-psychological condition can be detected. Thus if there is an addiction problem it will be reflected on the output of the reading signal of DNA. The person can thus receive immediate assistance and support from necessary professionals at early stages of developing such a problem. There will be also a lot of changes with regards to psychology and psychiatry. In the current system psychology and psychiatry are driven by the motive of making money from the patients and thus the patients’ problems are deliberately not cured actually so that they can continue to be exploited. In the EMS such things cannot be tolerated. Research being done will be focused on discovering the actual reasons for human being’s dysfunctional problems and find real effective practical solutions.’    Read More:  http://equalmoney.org/wiki/Health_Care#How_will_Addiction_be_dealt_with?

“A Few Points about Equal Money Capitalism, just to Wet your Appetite:

– It will Bring an End to All Debt in the World

– Property Ownership will be a Basic Human Right

– Healthcare will be a Basic Human Right

– Happiness will be a Basic Human Right

– Employment will be a Basic Human Right

– Education will be a Basic Human Right

– Freedom of Choice will be a Basic Human Right

This is But a Few of the Results of the Law of “Giving as you would like to Receive”, Embodied in Capitalism that is Based On Equal Rights for Every Human Being on Earth.

Every Human Being Claim ‘the Right to Life’, yet there is no Protection of this Right – unless you, in the Current Capitalism, have the Benefit of Money; this Equal Money Capitalism (EMC), will Prevent. What will also be Prevented, is War. As War is Profit-Driven.

It is Time for a New World System. One Based on Prevention, instead of Reaction. One Based on Honouring the Right of Life, Equally for All.

Join the Journey to Life, and Become Part of a Solution.” ~ Bernard Poolman

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Day 127: Looking at the ‘Why’ Behind the Causes of Homelessness

PROBLEM:

Homeless ‘mole people’, discovered in underground tunnels and shanty homes living in squalor, in Kansas City Missouri are evicted. I say this is the problem and not the people themselves because, they are human beings and not ‘an eye soar’ a ‘difficult situation’.  We have become a society/world that places the value of money above the value of life, all living beings-SO THAT IS THE REAL PROBLEM.

http://www.dailymail.co.uk/news/article-2306113/Kansas-City-homeless-city-Group-living-underground-crude-camps.html

In the comments section below the article you find many interesting perspectives, one person states the ‘mole people’  are there because of their own poor choices in life, and that there are many ways out if they are willing to make the positive changes that are necessary. Wish this were true, but it is extremely naive and misguided  for several reasons.  Unfortunately for most, it is just too late. In an article from Buzzle  http://www.buzzle.com/articles/homelessness-in-the-united-states.html the author states the main causes of  homelessness as: High Cost of Housing, Unemployment and Low Income, High Medical Costs, Drugs and Alcoholism, Lesser Government Assistance.  Yes, but let’s look at WHY-the root cause of each of these issues so we stop using a band aid approach OR CHARITY to solve them and create a new system that is based on equality as a  lasting and effective solution!  The problem of homelessness is not mysterious and can be solved quite simply (not easily or quickly, it would be a process over many years to completely eradicate),  if not for the GREED AND SELF-INTEREST  accepted within the current economic model, which prevents a permanent solution.

IT IS PATHETICALLY SIMPLE, THE HOMELESS DO NOT HAVE ENOUGH MONEY FOR RENT OR A MORTGAGE

High Cost of Housing:  Why does this issue exist?  Because within free market capitalism, it is apparently cool to look after number 1, you and your family come first and the accepted game is to  accumulate as much profit as you are able within your lifetime, therefore, the house/rental costs are what the market can bear, which is great if you have money and if you don’t IT’S NOT MY PROBLEM.

Unemployment and Low Income: Why does this issue exist?  Because the government of the U.S. and ALL supposed first world nations do not share the wealth! As living costs rise, the vulnerable and middle class are not considered in the equation, therefore, income does not rise to meet what is required to afford housing.  This creates a burden on the majority of the population to pay basic expenses, which places stresses and pressures to keep up in an environment of competition versus cooperation. The snowball effect results in increased sickness, addiction, divorce, child abuse to name a few.  As well, employment for all is not considered a priority over profit resulting in the accepted practices of laying off workers when machines- or hiring even cheaper labor- can do the job. So the divide between the rich and poor gets ever greater and continues in a downward spiral with no practical solution in sight.

High Medical Costs:  Why does this issue exist?  Because the government protects the powerful pharmaceutical corporations, keeping their prices to doctors/hospitals/consumers high,  and in turn these drug companies continue to support the relevant party with donations and help them remain in office. Those that have the power have the money, they are in ‘bed together’ and do not want to share.  As well, the government does not adequately support the hospitals with enough financial assistance  so medical staff is underpaid and overworked, there are equipment shortages and basically not enough funds to run the hospital and this translates into higher fees for the patient. The government once again can ‘keep their costs down’ by getting away with health care spending cuts.

Drugs and Alcoholism:  Why does this issue exist?  Because parents are not adequately educated how to raise a child who understands how to care for themselves, how the mind operates, how to live as the words they speak within integrity-because the parents themselves were taught,  ‘get what you can, it’s a dog eat dog world’ a life lesson with fear as it’s foundation.  So it is the starting point of the parent teaching the child to do whatever they can to survive, which does not consider the rest of society/humanity to be as important/one with them. This fear creates all sorts of demons within a person and the focus is not on self care-as you are one with your world and environment-but you are in opposition to /with it.  Therefore a person reaches for a drug to give temporary relief to the mind which is existing in/as fear.

Lesser Government Assistance:  Why does this issue exist?  Because the government wants to reduce cost/expenses to reduce it’s deficit, so replacing one problem for another and allowing a downward spiral by cutting funds to programs for the ‘vulnerable’ ones who need assistance.   Do the  government look in common sense and say, ‘Ok our salaries are on average $50K and these people have $0 or let us impose an immediate tax on those that have an income or assets over 2 million dollars, so let us distribute some MONEY/equalize this equation so they can purchase a home?’  NOPE. And we are allowing this by our compliance.  How about ‘let us build houses and give them to the homeless and use  money from the military budget to accomplish this?’  No again, why are these questions considered  silly/unrealistic/naive? Shouldn’t decent, safe and enjoyable shelter be a basic human right? Isn’t that what a government should be for , to serve and protect ALL of it’s citizens?  

A few more points, one, it is mentioned in the article that the ‘mole people’ will be assisted with shelter needs, but they obviously do not want much to do with the shelters (perhaps some do) as they had seen that offer and found it so inadequate they went to the extreme of digging underground tunnels  for themselves and their families!  And two, superficiality has replaced compassion and decency, within our societies to such an extreme that we prefer to not look at something that is ‘ugly’ ‘dirty’. Understanding the reporter needs to present his article in a sensational way so to attract the reader, the reporter uses words and phrases like, ‘dirty diapers found’ and ‘candles and old filthy mattresses’ to stir up images of ignorance and a haphazard attitude. However, one needs to eat and sleep therefore garbage is created, sometimes you put it in bags and animals rip open the bags, it is difficult to transfer to a garbage dump if you do not have a vehicle to do so, the earth is soil/dirt so obviously items will get ‘dirty’, this doesn’t mean you love your family less-they don’t have the money to simply pop something into the wash and dryer in common sense, if one has no flashlight as it was too expensive and one has a candle then you are going to ‘make due’ for that night and use what is available, sure its dangerous and irresponsible but you do what you have to that night to survive.

To continue with SOLUTIONS in the next post

“A Few Points about Equal Money Capitalism, just to Wet your Appetite:

– It will Bring an End to All Debt in the World

– Property Ownership will be a Basic Human Right

– Healthcare will be a Basic Human Right

– Happiness will be a Basic Human Right

– Employment will be a Basic Human Right

– Education will be a Basic Human Right

– Freedom of Choice will be a Basic Human Right

This is But a Few of the Results of the Law of “Giving as you would like to Receive”, Embodied in Capitalism that is Based On Equal Rights for Every Human Being on Earth.

Every Human Being Claim ‘the Right to Life’, yet there is no Protection of this Right – unless you, in the Current Capitalism, have the Benefit of Money; this Equal Money Capitalism (EMC), will Prevent. What will also be Prevented, is War. As War is Profit-Driven.

It is Time for a New World System. One Based on Prevention, instead of Reaction. One Based on Honouring the Right of Life, Equally for All.

Join the Journey to Life, and Become Part of a Solution.” ~ Bernard Poolman

Check out the Desteni I Process Lite –
a FREE course that will assist humanity to end the disaster of a dysfunctional consciousness.

Day 110: I Owe Money: Deep Sadness and Regret 3

Please read the previous posts, Day 108/109 for context to this blog in which I outline the problem -A lifetime of increasing debt, caused by a  pattern of fear of failure, manifesting as the ‘I’m not good enough’ character and then using hope/dreaming/spirituality, basically chasing my tail around instead of practical movement in reality, to not really try to better my income, thus getting entrenched into and living out these characters AS ME.

Continuing with the SOLUTION:  Applying self-forgiveness and living/walking a self-corrective application with each breath throughout one’s day.

From the previous post:

Thought: I hate that I borrowed money throughout my life and that I still owe people/institutions money. I wish I could turn back the clock and act responsibly. I would not do it again

Note: If you are new to this blog, I have been sober now for 9 years! Lol, I have received some comments from very upset readers concerned/angered about me as a mom.  Also, to note, when I say I was drinking alcoholically, it is a slow progression of a disease, you are not a full blown drunk right away, so the years when my children were young it was very easy to ‘hide’/I would appear completely normal to people/could handle it very well. Not an excuse or to say it had no effect/influence on my life or children’s lives. They did not see me drunk until near the end of the drinking years, which was horrible enough.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to participate in backchat around this issue: ‘I wonder what they think of me, maybe I’ll pay them back when I have more money later in life, they don’t need the money, they are lucky as they are rich, my family actually needs the money, how much will I pay them back, I should give money to a worth while cause and not to rich people just because I owe it, it was for the children, I wouldn’t have borrowed it in the fist place if I did not have the children,  I only owe it cause my ex left the marriage,  their relative did not live up to his commitments that ‘s why I borrowed in the fist place, to support the children and why I owe them money now, they are rich- screw paying them back, I should pay them, it is the principal of the situation, it is living with integrity to pay the banks and rich ex-relatives back, but I need the money and they don’t, I don’t know.. what the hell, life is weird and unfair, it is a dilemma!’

Why do I talk myself in circle in my head like this ? What do I desire/not want to give up?

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realize I am being directed by anger: about past failure-so living within/as the starting point of the past and worry that this issue wont’ get resolved & anger at my parents, as in blaming them for my financial failure-as in marrying a man who is a bully/verbally abusive like my Dad and so the marriage eventually failed & I had the example of my mom being at stay at home mom and wanted the same for my life and so did not further pursue a career after my first child & anger at the world systems for a society where some have so much and some so little and when I found myself as a ‘have not’ it was very difficult to ‘get on my feet again’ almost impossible without family assistance.  Also I afraid that if I don’t review these issues (of the backchat above about my debt)  over and over in my mind, I’ll forget or miss something, which is not trusting my process of stopping thoughts, to stabilize myself here in physical equality and oneness. In that, I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realize I desire to be seen as a winner, and to be liked, I don’t want to give that up, being seen as a character in a story, ‘who failed but then lived up to her responsibilities-came through in the end with grace and no bitterness’ kind of thing.

In that, I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realize I am/have been directed by guilt that I was not mentally healthy /stable enough at the time I borrowed to organize myself to make monthly payments, which I see now would have been a sensible solution, I acted in self-interest and followed my ego of wanting to be a songwriter, which was not realistic (I realize it was fun and that is ok for enjoyment!) because it takes money to record and promote and it takes a clear head to write and record and promote and I was an active alcoholic during the years I went into alot of debt AND NOT OF CLEAR MIND. I also realize my fear f failure stopped me from any serious attempt at promoting/sharing/performing music and of course, the stuff I wrote may not have made income regardless. And so I realize I should have created another path (I did make income-basement apartment, summer students, daycare in home) to make more steady income to pay my debts and not allow bills/financial commitments to pile up throughout the year so I need, yet another loan!

When and as I see myself falling into participating/engaging in inner conversation/backchat about owing money to people and institutions, making excuses, blaming, etc. I say ‘stop, not participating, back to breath’ and I take in a deep breath and focus on my physicality and my day and get on with the task at hand.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to participate in the following emotions around this issue of debt: fear, sadness, regret, remorse, embarrassment, shame, anger, resent, inferior, superior, blame, self-blame, lethargy, apathy, hopelessness, helplessness.  In that, I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realize I am living out the ‘not good enough’ character of letting the mind of ‘fear of failure’ direct me/my day instead of me directing myself in each moment–so I used alcohol, sleep, spirituality (belief in a higher power), writing music, dreaming of success–to postpone, not try, give up to really take steps to tackle my lack of movement to financially get myself stable, independent of any financial institution  or personal financial assistance, so as not to keep taking money out of my mortgage to survive-depleting my only asset-which would lead to further, future financial dependency.

When and as I see myself participating in such emotions around the issue of personal debt, I remind myself I am physical and I touch myself and use breath to bring myself back down to earth and t stabilize myself here as I now see/realize/understand engaging in these emotions only further harms my physicality and does not change the situation, I have settled quite a bit of my debt in the last few years and will figure out the rest in time, I will pay back the ones who have an abundance of money last-an agreed upon percent, as they do not need it in common sense and that is best for all.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to become so possessed by my reactions of emotions I was unaware the effect this was having on my human physical body; stress/strain on my back and shoulder and facial muscles, tight jaw, shallow breathing, holding my breath, tightness in my  solar plexes and all this allowing this energy to break down the substance of my muscle tissue so essentially eat away at the cell/structure of the physical, depleting it  and aging it or causing disease over time. Why? To use the substance to produce/substantiate more energy! Like I am being used as an energy machine -my emotions the fuel to keep the machine –as the mind/conscious/sub-con/un-con–running. But if I allow this machine to keep running then I am not life HERE the machine is , I am just an organic robot  REACTING, which harms me and others that I love/respect. This is unacceptable to me now.

When and as I see myself going into a behavioral change within my physical body, I immediately stop myself, using my breath to pull myself back down to earth–get re-grounded as I now see /realize/understand  to let myself get this far means I have lost my true beingness lost in my mind and followed a thought allowing it to control my very physicality which results in harm. I remind myself I no longer accept myself to let the past control me through fear I cannot change the past through the emotions of regret and sadness but I can resolve issues in the present and move myself responsibly to ensure the past is not repeated and to be compassionate to/with others who experience debt/financial stress and work toward a lasting solution, EMC (Equal Money Capitalism).  I use my breath and carry on with my day, remaining out of my ‘head’.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realize the consequences of engaging in my mind instead of remaining present/here with breath of ; strengthening my mind- as the conscious and subconscious- and not strengthening my stand here, not being able to be fully aware and really engage in a meaningful or supportive way-as behaving and treating others how I would want to be treated in the same situation with patience and fairness and not bringing in the past to the conversation,  not exemplifying the Desteni message of oneness and equality and being fully physical (not a mind system) so as to not stand as complete stability in each moment, as someone that can be trusted to do/live the principal of ‘what is best for all’ and not just in self-interest (and I am accusing others-my creditors- in my mind of not being trustworthy), and lastly, I timeloop myself and have to face this point, of thinking and following the thought, ‘I hate that I borrowed money throughout my life and that I still owe people/institutions money. I wish I could turn back the clock and act responsibly. I would not do it again’, over and over again until I am able to trust myself not to engage/participate in the mind, breathe through it,  when it comes up.

I commit myself, to assist and support myself, to the process of freeing myself and others from the many consequences that result from mind participation and specifically around this issue of me acting as ‘the debtor’ and ‘I’m not good enough’ characters. Thus, when I see these characters, I immediately stop, I breathe and bring myself back to the physical as I now see/realize/understand when I participate in the mind I create consequences, which creates a time loop, so I am not facing myself in self-honesty in that moment and will have to re-walk the point , when I could simply slow down and face what has come up within myself- in this moment. I also see it is self-sabotoge, as re-living the past/creating the future from the past, instead of being self-honest/self-directive in the moment here, finally, I do not wish to cause unnecessary harm/strain to others who where trying to assist me financially in the past.

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Day 109: I Owe People Money: Deep Sadness and Regret 2

Please read the previous post, Day 108 for context to this blog in which I outline the problem -a lifetime of increasing debt, caused by a  pattern of fear of failure, manifesting as the ‘I’m not good enough’ character and then using hope/dreaming/spirituality, basically chasing my tail around instead of practical movement in reality, to not really try to better my income, thus getting entrenched into and living out these characters AS ME.

So now for the SOLUTION:  Applying self-forgiveness and living/walking a self-corrective application with each breath throughout one’s day.

From the previous post:

Thought: I hate that I borrowed money throughout my life and that I still owe people/institutions money. I wish I could turn back the clock and act responsibly. I would not do it again

Note: If you are new to this blog, I have been sober now for 9 years! Lol, I have received some comments from very upset readers concerned/angered about me as a mom.  Also, to note, when I say I was drinking alcoholically, it is a slow progression of a disease, you are not a full blown drunk right away, so the years when my children were young it was very easy to ‘hide’/I would appear completely normal to people/could handle it very well. Not an excuse or to say it had no effect/influence on my life or children’s lives. They did not see me drunk until near the end of the drinking years, which was horrible enough.

Continuing:

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to become ‘the debtor’ and as the debtor think, ‘I hate that I borrowed money throughout my life and that I still owe people/institutions money. I wish I could turn back the clock and act responsibly. I would not do it again.’

When and as I see I am falling into this character and this re-occuring thought, as the beginning of a pattern, I say ‘NO, not participating, back to breath’ and I stand and I use breath to stabilize myself here in physical equality and oneness, as I now see/realize/understand I cannot effectively direct myself/my day if I am lost in my mind of continual thinking, participating in this one thought leads me down the rabbit hole of all sorts of backchat and pictures/memories and it does not change the past and is therefore a waste of my time.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realize that my engagement in this thought is based on a foundation of fear of failure and leads me into another character ‘I’m not good enough’ and as this character I give myself an ‘out’/excuse to not remain with clarity (out of consciousness as/with the starting point of the past) and move freely throughout my day/ move forward with tasks that will lead to/can lead to  a resolution of this situation.

I commit myself, to assist and support myself, to be aware of this fear of failure and tendency to go into a state/feeling of hopelessness around this situation, so I stop all such participation in  this fear as I now see/realize/understand there is nothing to be afraid of, as in reality the past is the past and what remains is pictures/memories in my mind, which when I go back to breath/my physical body and focus on staying out of my mind, dissipates until it vanishes completely, so it has no power-reality in itself-except what power I give it in the moment, so I let it go and continue on with my day.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to engage in my imagination around this thought with moving pictures/images/memories/fantasies of re-paying debt or being vindicated somehow, lol of :  imaginings of receiving a boat load of money and how the relief would feel, winning the lottery, winning a car from my coffee purchase (promotion from local coffee shop), pictures of all the various people and institutions I owe money to and me paying them back -smiling and apologizing, writing a letter to people explaining why/how this happened and why taking me so long to re-pay, dropping off a letter at a house, imagining what my creditors say about me/think about me, imagining me as the ‘good person’/victim and my creditors as the ‘wolves at the door‘ (personal and institutions) and them realizing one day equality is what is needed in the world and they were wrong to want re-payment-not let me ‘off the hook’ for the debt and I was right, imaging seeing some of my creditors–and some other people who I had asked for a loan but they said no (these were acquaintances)– at some upcoming social functions and me feeling ashamed/embarrassed and explaining to them why I asked -so planning out my speech so I come out looking/them thinking better of me.

In that, I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not trust my process of staying aware with breath here, because I am worried if I don’t think about it, it will not get resolved, I want to change my negative energy of the emotions of guilt/regret/shame to positive energy experience of revenge, relief, happiness in self-interest-so failure to success-which is just another character–in polarity– using energy from the physical body to feed the mind consciousness systems!  In that, I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realize when I use the imagination I am strengthening my mind of illusion INSTEAD OF STRENGTHENING MY STAND HERE in physical equality and oneness.

When and as I see myself participating in my imagination around this thought/the character of the ‘the debtor’ I immediately bring myself out of my head and back to the physical with a firm statement ‘no, not participating, back to breath’ (if others are present, I simply say this in my mind or whisper it) and then continue to focus on ONE BREATH AT A TIME remaining here, as I now see/realize/understand engaging in my mind of imagination leads to further mind energy manifesting in the form of emotions and then physical body changes and can lead to consequences ie. postponement so not accomplishing my daily tasks and family responsibilities or work responsibilities, it does not change the past, it keeps me from changing in any substantial/lasting way as my starting point IS THE PAST and not here-where real power manifests moment to moment.

Note: About half of my debt has been payed OR resolved in a settlement=partial payment, over the last 5 years, through re-financing (again) and coming to an agreement with creditors, and also to note most of what is left is personal debt I owe to ex-relatives.

To continue with the SOLUTIONS the next post, as examining internal conversations, reactions of emotions and feelings, physical body changes, consequences and then outlining some of the REWARDS of change that result from this process of writing yourself to freedom! (see below Dip Pro and Dip Lite)

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