Day 259: Re-Defining: ‘Night Sweats’ 4

brain-fogstressed-mature-woman-menopause-28070714From the previous post:   “If my current definition of  menopause/night sweat/hot flash contains all sorts of negative “baggage”, then the experience of the ‘hot flash’ will be worse than what it “really is” because  letting go of those negative attachments allows the person to breathe in the moment of the sweat   without all of the “self pity”, “misery”, “terror”, “fear of death” – or whatever one may have experienced before.  You may be surprised how much this simple thing can change your experience.   Very often our thoughts aggravate our experiences allowing yourself the simple act of breathing through this physical “transition” will be of great support to your body – essentially giving yourself the “space” to move through it with the least resistance.”  Cerise Poolman

RE-DEFINING NIGHT SWEATS

Dictionary Definition:   from Everyday Health:  In addition to hot flashes, many menopausal women experience the symptom’s nocturnal accomplice known as night sweats. You wake up in the middle of the night cold and clammy, your heart pounding, and the sheets drenched in sweat. It’s hard to calm down and get comfortable again, and it’s impossible not to be irritated by the interruption to a good night’s sleep.

My Definition:  Something I have to endure/suffer through, an experience I have no choice in, in which I feel helpless and hopeless.  An intolerable  cycle of waking up sweating, throwing off the covers and then getting chilled, so hot then cold, then trying to go back to sleep for a few minutes.  This occurs about every 30 minutes, every night, my fate in which there is no escape except over time (average is 4 years, I have gone through about 2). Waking up tired or getting up in middle of night, frustrated, defeated and bewildered.  Feeling drained, not being able to be as productive, determined, creative, physically active, getting as many tasks done in a day.

Sounding:    nights wet

Explore in Writing:  The medical industry does not fully understand why the sweating occurs.  However, from what I understand through my participation with Desteni (taking the DIP Pro online course),  the sweating is the body being too full of built up energies. Energies created through my participation within the mind of emotions and feelings which I have suppressed-held within me.  So now the body is releasing all the energies at once to make space for the next cycle of the mind, to continue what the mind has been doing, which is resourcing substance from the physical body to continue it’s (the mind consciousness systems) own existence.

This experience feels like a battleground between me and my body and my mind.  A contest to see who will win, a fight, a dreading, my peace/reprieve from life’s daily struggles lost/stolen from me through my pre-programmed life design and the design of my mind and body.  A a good nights sleep/rejuvenation of the physical body, to face the next day, is gone. A lost battle, the consequence of living as a mind versus a total physical being,  it feels like a giving in/giving up to suffering, no control signifying the aging process and inevitable death, defeat, victimization, self-pity, regret and sadness.  A reminder of time/the clock ticking, like time is almost up here and a reminder of all the moments/days/years I wasted in fear/alcoholism, not in reality but lost in my mind.  It is therefore my responsibility and no one/nothing else to blame.

I don’t like who I am within it, I feel like I am cycling between moaning and complaining  and then re-stating a resolution to not moan and complain so much, lol.

New Definition:  A physical release of stored up energies within the physical body, which occurs in some women during mid-life. There is a decrease in estrogen production in women during this stage of life, this estrogen decrease causes the normal functioning of the hypothalamus (the area of the brain that acts as the body’s thermostat)  to be thrown off-course and it thinks that the body is overheating. This overheating results in the release of the energies through sweating.

“The drop in estrogen that comes with menopause (as it is no longer required to produce an egg when one is past the child bearing years) affects the part of the brain called the hypothalamus. This region is responsible for regulating body temperature.  During menopause, the hypothalamus gets “fooled” into sensing that the body is overheating. It then sends out signals to the body to dispel this perceived heat, increasing blood pressure, heart rate, sweat production, and temperature.”    http://www.34-menopause-symptoms.com/night-sweats-causes.htm

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Day 258: Night Sweats 3: Re-writing the script

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‘I can’t take it anymore, is this ever going to end?! I could take the estrogen again and be perfectly fine, it is just a precaution for god sake!’

“If my current definition of  menopause/night sweat/hot flash contains all sorts of negative “baggage”, then the experience of the ‘hot flash’ will be worse than what it “really is” because  letting go of those negative attachments allows the person to breathe in the moment of the sweat   without all of the “self pity”, “misery”, “terror”, “fear of death” – or whatever one may have experienced before.  you may be surprised how much this simple thing can change your experience.   Very often our thoughts aggravate our experiences allowing yourself the simple act of breathing through this physical “transition” will be of great support to your body – essentially giving yourself the “space” to move through it with the least resistance.”  Cerise Poolman

Commitment Statements:  Re-Writing the Script

When and as I see myself thinking ‘I can’t take it anymore, is this ever going to end?! I could take the estrogen again and be perfectly fine, it is just a precaution for god sake!’, I stop and breathe.   I  remind myself it is important to me to take care of my physical body the best way I know how and studies have shown women who take estrogen increase their risk of beast cancer. Thus, I commit myself to not participate in thinking about the next sweat or thinking about how the night will go.

When and as I see myself comparing myself to others and judging myself as old/boring/unimportant/embarrassing because of writing about this issue/experience, I stop and breathe.   I  make sure I am writing my journey to life in self-honestly and as this is what I am facing day and night, it is appropriate to face this point and others write about what they are currently facing in their lives.  I remind myself I do not require opinions/memories/self-judgements, which only sabotage my process.  I remind myself the sweats are a physical consequence of every moment of my life, that I cannot change but I can change how I approach it/deal with it.  Thus, I commit myself to the process of remaining out of my mind and walking one breath at a time.

When and as I see myself particpating in emotional reactions of  anxiety, dread, helplessness, hopelessness, victimization, self-sabotage, self-blame, blame, impatience, self-pity and particularily fear, fearing the next sweat and fearing how the night will unfold/will I get enough sleep, I stop and breathe.   I  realize, since I have starting writing about this issue, the sweats have ‘calmed down’, as I am staying more and more with breath awareness through each sweat (and inbetween) I seem to be having less sweats during the day and night and they are less intense.  Therefore, I commit myself to continue using resolve and  dedication and know one day they will end, in time or by transcending them completely.

When and as I see myself engaging in inner chatter/backchat in and around this issue, I stop and breathe.   I see/realize/understand that it is quite useless and in fact only aggravates the situation even more to talk away inside my mind, as it builds up energies/feeds upon itself causing the body to react in a more severe manner than it would if I would simply remain here with breath.  I commit myself to the process of stilling/silencing the mind and continue on with my day, moving with my feet firmly on the ground.

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Day 257: Reacting to Night Sweats 2: Walking a process towards healing

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From the previous post:   I have been waking up with nights sweats for I suppose 2 years now. It is very severe and continuous…I have been pretty diligent about not letting thoughts possess me but I noticed lately, the sweats seem worse and I am going into reactions more, like a hopelessness and panic/fear that I cannot cope any longer…I will deconstruct my reactions to these sweats within the thought:

‘I can’t take it anymore, is this ever going to end?! I could take the estrogen again and be perfectly fine, it is just a precaution for god sake!’

I forgive myself for not realizing that I have accepted and allowed myself to think, ‘I can’t take it anymore, is this ever going to end?! I could take the estrogen again and be perfectly fine, it is just a precaution for god sake!’

I forgive myself for not realizing that I have accepted and allowed myself to negatively charge the words/phrases: menopause, hot flash, night sweats.

I forgive myself for not realizing that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as boring/old/uncool/uninteresting/unimportant around the thought, ‘Everyone (other ‘Journey to Life’ writers) is writing about such cool stuff, menopause is so unsexy/unhip, I used to be cool/people thought I was cool, this is embarrassing and humiliating.’

I forgive myself for not realizing that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate within an energetic reaction of fear, as the very foundation of this thought, fearing I will be tired all day and not be able to accomplish my daily responsibilities, fearing I will ‘loose it’ like my sanity and have a mental breakdown, fearing the ‘design’ of my human body like it is hopeless/helpless in the face of time and I am aging and walking toward death.

I forgive myself for not realizing that I have accepted and allowed myself to engage in backchat/inner conversation like: nothing is working, I have tried everything and wasted my money on all sorts of homeopathic remedies, I am weak and a fool, why do somewomen not suffer through this and I am, it is my fault for being such a drama queen and alcoholic all my life (been sober now 10 years), I built up all these energies inside of myself and now I am paying for it, I deserve this, I am a helpless victim of my body, OMG it’s getting worse not better, my sister said some women still have sweats into their 70′s I cannot bear that thought, if I take the estrogen then I could get cancer, I could get cancer anyway, I don’t know what to do, it is overwhelming.

I forgive myself for not realizing that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into reactions of emotions such as: fearanxiety, dread, helplessness, hopelessness, victimization, self-sabotage, self-blame, blame, impatience, self-pity, and misery in and around this issue.

In that, I forgive myself for not realizing that I have accepted and allowed myself to aggravate the situation/hot flash-through participating within the negative emotions which creates energies of anxiety causing my breathing to become shallow, holding my breaththereby holding on to the energies-not releasing them, tensing my facial muscles and jaw, tensing my neck/shoulders, creating a stirring fear in my solar plexes/chest/stomach, causing me to go into all sorts of thought patterns thereby not being able to fall back tosleep.

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Day 256: Reacting to Night Sweats

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I have, in July 2012 examined the point of  menopause  as in the agreement of passing time. In this post I will look at the point of night sweats I am facing in the present. I have been waking up with nights sweats for I suppose 2 years now. It is very severe and continuous, about every 30-40 minutes, now and then an hour. It has definately ‘turned my world around’ and somewhat consumed me, as in changed my day and night pattern, with regard to sleep and sometimes consumed my mind. I have been pretty diligent about not letting thoughts possess me but I noticed lately, the sweats (day and night) seem worse and I am going into reactions more, like a hopelessness and panic/fear that I cannot cope any longer.

I have tried everything and the only thing that worked (not entirely but I could get a decent night sleep) was taking estrogen (a hormone replacement). I took it for 6 months and it was awesome, it felt like my life was given back to me. I was soooo grateful for agood nights sleep! However, after having an irregular mammogram, it was suggested by my doctor to go off it. Now I am having the same thoughts as I did before I went on the estrogen, like ‘oh god, its almost bedtime, I have to go through that again, I can’t stand it’. It just plain sucks to dread going to bed. Sleep should be a welcome part of a 24 hour day, to rejuvenate the body, not to endure suffering! (it is not painful, I would call it suffering though). So I am back to trying all sorts of diet changes and natural remedies but nothing is giving relief.

It is strange because a few months ago I was not having much backchat/thoughts or reactions as there was a slight ‘let up’ in severity of the sweats, so I could ‘handle it’ better. When I traced my steps I noticed a few changes I made that may have caused thischange in the severity of the sweats. So I have started taking hormeeel drops again (suggested by my naturopathic doctor) and going for longish walks again (although it is freezing out, lol) and may cut out one of my two cups of coffee in the morning, in hopes to have this relief come back. Been about 3 days, no change yet.

It is frustrating, it’s like there is a meter of internal heat that I-my mind/body/being-can ‘handle’ and once I am over that temperature the mind-thought patterns and reactions start up again.

From what I understand, from my participation within Desteni, the sweats are caused by all the energies I have built-up, throughout my lifetime, and held within my physical body. So all my suppressions, issues (thought/feelings/emotions) I did not address in the physical,  are still existent, alive and well, and  stored/layered within the muscle tissue of the physical body.   As my body is ‘full up’/ there is no more room in the physical body, it requires releasing these energies as sweat/heat, to re-charge/make room for more mind participation in my futures days (god forbid lol).  Thereby the mind systems can survive-keep living on.  Within this, I realize I am responsible to the process of releasing  these energies and then to not build them back up again, which means to the process of  becoming wholly physical, so not again participating within the mind consciousness systems of thoughts/feelings/emotions/memories/etc!

I will deconstruct my reactions to sweating, especially at night, within the thought, ‘I can’t take it anymore, is this ever going to end?! I could take the estrogen again and be perfectly fine, it is just a precaution for god sake!’

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Day 247: Anger and Jealousy 3

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From part 1:  Problem: Within the above statement/thought there is a truck load of memories and associated emotions of resent/anger/jealousy, which chain me to the past. I am existing in separation from this couple, limiting both them and myself to ideas/characters which I hold onto to, to define all of us, based on memories of the past. Thus, I am unable to see what is here, as direct reality and unable to change what is here. Solution: Change my relationship to what is actually here in reality-from mind to physical-and thus change my relationship to myself and others, into what is best for all.

Thought: I always felt ‘less than’ going to their cottage. Why do they get the perfect life? It really makes me angry!

Continuing

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to participate within a number of emotional energetic reactions, with regards to this thought, such as: anger, resentment, jealousy, inferiority, superiority, comparison, humiliation, spite, regret, shame, embarrassment, judgement of another, self-judgement, self-sabotage, self-doubt and self-pity.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to become angry as an emotional energetic reaction of defense, simply because I did not/do not ‘feel good about myself’.

I forgive myself for not realizing I have accepted and allowed myself to engage within polarities in my mind, when I spent time with this couple in the past, and in my imagination today. These polarities kept me occupied within feeling less than and competitive so I was not able to respect (hold myself in a loving way/hold them in a loving way) myself or them, I was unable to focus on reality and simply be there, consumed within self-interest about what their opinion was of me and what I did not have (materially and emotionally) versus what they had. Therefore, I was unable to enjoy myself, honor myself and them, simply see the situation for what it was; they had more money and so more material possessions, period.

In that, I forgive myself for not realizing I have accepted and allowed myself to participate within the emotions/energies of confidence-superiority and insecurity-inferiority, swinging between the two polarities because of my own discomfort level. So feeling first insecure/less than and then desiring to escape this ‘bad feeling’ by talking to myself/inner chatter or having a few drinks (I was not drinking alcoholically at this time, but still used alcohol to boost my ego/liquid courage lol now and then) so ‘feel better’ as I could justify I was the ‘better person’ because they were ‘materialistic’ and I was ‘humble’ lol or ‘feeling better’ with alcohol in me so I could ‘act’ confident and the time would pass faster.

I forgive myself for not realizing I have accepted and allowed myself to physical change/physically react when trapped in thought patterns around this issue/couple such as: my whole body contracts in fear and self-doubt causing my breath to become shallow, my back and neck stiffen and begin to ache, my brow creases and my jaw clenches, I create energies/movement in my solar plexes which goes into my stomach causing nausea/stress/anxiety. No wonder I could not enjoy myself!

I forgive myself for not realizing I have accepted and allowed myself to think/believe/perceive that others are aware, or should be aware of how I am experiencing myself , it should be obvious to them when I am uncomfortable others, and that they should take responsibility for me, blaming them for how I was feeling, ‘How insensitive this couple and my husband are, can’t they see how uncomfortable I am here!’ and ‘I am not impressed with their excessive wealth, it just makes the inequality in the world more blatant, I do not enjoy using their toys, I just want to go home.’ But if I was not impressed, why was I so uncomfortable and jealous? It was both, some jealousy/desiring the ‘good/easy’ life and some judgement of how it is wrong people exist in such extreme financial polarities on this earth

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Day 211: SOLUTION to Canada’s Minimum Wage Disgrace

clip_image002_thumb1A Living Income Guaranteed Is the Solution To Canada’s Minimum Wage Problem

Within the proposed Living Income Guaranteed, only those who are unable to work or lacking access to basic human necessities, will receive it. The reason for this is to ensure, for those who are able/capable to work, there is incentive to do so.
The minimum wage will be double the income guarantee. So for simplicity sake, let’s say the Living Income Guarantee is based on the numbers found by the group (used as an example in the previous blog) done in Vancouver, B.C., $19.14 per hour or $34,835 annually.
This would be provided for all who are not working, specifically;  quote taken  from What is the Living Income Guaranteed?   ‘LIG is a economic and political mechanism to ensure the establishment of Fundamental Human Birth Rights of the public through allocating an allowance on a monthly basis to every eligible individual that is currently in a position of being unable to sustain themselves – and/or people in their custody – financially to a level that Human Dignity deserves and that currently lack such support due to reasons beyond their immediate control including – but not limited to – unemployment, lacking access to food, lacking access to housing, lacking access to healthcare, lacking access to education, physical disability, being retired or not old enough to have a job….with guaranteed access to their fundamental human birth rights: Food, Water, Housing, Healthcare, Education, Clothing, Transportation, Public Services, etc.’
To Review:
SCENARIO 1:  2 full time Minimum wage earners @ $10.25/hr, with one child
The expenses added up to: $53,364 *note: with 2 children the expenses add up to $62,000
The wages added up to: $42,640
To keep in mind here, I did this estimate very conservatively, using a bare bones approach, it did not include any savings for retirement, a large purchase like a car or a home, loan payments, lost wages due to the unexpected, family pet to name some, but not all, possible life expenses.
SCENARIO 2:  2 full time LIVING wage earners @$19.14/hr, with two children
The expenses added up to: $5,288/month $63,456
The wages added up to: $6,125/month $73,500
Again, this estimate was prepared using a bare bones approach, the number used are very conservative and realistic but do not include any savings/budgeting: for vacation (mine did, lol, everyone deserves an annual break/enjoyment), retirement, a large purchases like a car or a home and ongoing costs associated , loan payments, lost wages due to the unexpected, family pet to name some, but not all, possible life expenses.
As you can clearly see, within the living income approach a family/individual has a budget that works, a budget that allows for covering some of the life expenses that are not covered in the two models.
SCENARIO 3:  A Living Income Guaranteed:
Here, any persons who cannot work or do not have access to basic human necessities, would receive the minimum living allowance of approximately $3,200/month or $38,400/yr (which is based, for simplicity sake in this blog, on $20/hr full time 40 hr/week) per person in the household. Looking at the second scenario of a family of 4, assuming none were employed, they would receive $153,600/yr.
*Remember here, there was MUCH not included/left out with respect to living expenses, in the 2 scenarios above, so this is enough for a decent life for 4 people, not an extravagant life.
There are people in the current system who have MUCH MORE than this who did nothing (as inherited/born into wealthy family) to earn/’deserve’ this life. If you are wondering about those who have an abundance of wealth now, no they would not receive the LIG as, in common sense, they simply do not need it.
And those that do work,  ‘we propose that the Minimum Wage is Doubled (twice the Living Income Allowance)’  http://basicincomeguaranteed.wordpress.com/2013/10/11/376-what-is-the-living-income-guaranteed/
Therefore, based on a living wage of $20/hr, 2 adults working full time they would be paid @ $40/hr totaling $6,400/mo each $76,800/yr. x 2 = $153, 600/yr. The difference in this scenario is adding on the monthly allowance for the 2 children brings the yearly income to $230,400!
At this point, please ‘Keep in Mind’:
1. The numbers I am using in these blogs are but an example, not necessarily the accurate/actual numbers that will be used/proposed by The Equal Life Foundation, which is the group advocating for A Living Income Guaranteed.
2. The Living Income Guaranteed model/approach was not created from the starting point of keeping people in a life situation where they have just enough to survive but that they, as equal to all other human beings on this planet, deserve a life which empowers them to be the best person they can be, so they are free to grow/learn/express/explore/expand as life.
Finally, an income opportunity and life for ALL to enjoy an annual vacation, explore the beautiful world, create a living space that is awesome, purchase materials/goods to sew or build, play with music and afford musical instruments, learn to build your own home and grow your own food, purchase land and design an awesome house, learn about culture/food/animals in other parts of the world, etc. You get the picture, finally you are not limited because of money and stress, you can breathe and begin to consider who you are, who you can become now that you’re not flat broke all the fucking time. YES!
3. This will have the effect of benefiting all of humanity as they discover and share their individual gifts, no longer allowing just the lucky few/families to benefit from man’s labor, as is the current system on earth.
How many Einsteins have we missed? How many potential authors/poets/musicians/inventors/scientists have died in childhood due to starvation/the lack of proper distribution of earth’s resources?
4.  Many will refute these figures and say it is impossible. It is not. To justify doing nothing, with the excuse ‘it is impossible’ is the LIE and an EVIL ( backwards is LIVE) mother f***n one at that.
The money to fund the Living Income Guaranteed will come from the nationalization of  resources, ‘banks and basic services which means that if, for example, your oil, gas, water, electricity, telecommunications ,transportation is defined as patrimony of the people, the profit that comes from the consumption/purchase of such goods and services should be sufficient to fund the Living Income Guaranteed for eligible individuals.’
Funding will also come from what was spent (trillions) on the military machine, to name one industry that will slowly dissipate, as over time people will see it is no longer required. War is all about money, greed, power and control. To use ‘God’ to justify killing/warring with others is just a convenient cover-up to continue with an antiquated approach to life, one that considers only ones own survival/interest/pleasures. Time to take responsibility for what we have all created equally here, a giant mess, and bring it back to what is real, as the physical. We are all here as billions of individuals but on one planet, earth and there is nothing we can do about that. But we can change the currents systems so all may enjoy a life worth living. There is enough here for all to live abundantly, it will just take time. We need to move ourselves in this direction.
5. Having said that, and having focused so far on the outer, what also requires to be changed is the inner. Meaning, we need to change the money system and/at the same time we also need to change ourselves within, change human nature. This means, each one must focus one oneself, in a process of self-discovery/awareness. A tall order, yes, impossible, no.  It is simply a decision  and a process.
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Day 210: Canada’s Minimum Wage Disgrace

1150290_296324983844102_1775596084_nProblem:  The minimum wage does not reflect the cost of living in Canada.  Not Even Close!

Typically, it is the retail employee, childcare worker, wait staff in restuarants, most service related jobs, who receive a whopping 10.25 hour as a minimum wage, with meager increases over periods of time (ie. after one year.50/hour) but these increases only add up to  $20/week, based on a full time 40 hour work week, or more likely $10/wk, as most retailer employers/owners only want part-time workers so they do not have to pay benefits, holiday pay or sick leave.

‘..After covering housing, transportation and food most will not be able to sustain a reasonable standard of living. They are among the thousands of working poor in Canada.’    http://www.frugalcanadianliving.com/2008/06/minimum-wage-in-canada.html

Would you trade places with one of the slaves slugging away at your local Tim Horton’s, MacDonald’s, Foodland? If you are one of the lucky, living comfortably, the answer is NO you would not trade places.

So, let’s look at this problem within it’s simplicity, using the fact/truth that numbers can provide:

SENARIO 1  :  2 full time minimum wage earners, with one child

Income :   10.25 x 40 = $410/wk x 52 weeks = $21,320  x 2 = $ 42,640

Expenses/Cost of living:

personal income tax @ approx. 10%   $  4,264

rent 2 bedroom apartment:  $1395   x 12 = $16,800

http://www.toronto.ca/housing/pdf/quickfacts.pdf

food: for 2 adults and one child:  100/week 400/mo x 12  = $4800

childcare:  for 1 child                         650/mo x 12=  $7800

misc: home repairs/toiletries      $30/wk x  52=$1560

transportation:  ttc pass for one adult = $130 x 2 = 260 x 12= $3120

Utilities and phone/cable   approximately  250/mo x 12=$3000

emergency/contingency fund:   (approx 2 months rent) so put aside $250/mo=$3000

dental/medical (perscription drugs) $150/mo x 12= $1800

vacation  $3000

CLOTHING  200/mo x 12= $2400

misc:  gifts/movie/restaurant-dinner out/order in pizza   $50/wk x 52= $1820

This minimum wage calculation does not cover: Credit card, loan, or other debt/interest payments, owning a home with additional fixed expenses, one example being property tax at approx. $300/mo, family pet expenses, lost wages:  due to illness or to take care of family member, SAVINGS:  Retirement OR saving to purchase a home , education: adult or children’s post-secondary education     
The expenses above add up to:                               $53,364
The wages for the two working adults (full time):  $ 42,640
You can see the system is designed to benefit the banks-forcing people to go into debt just to survive!
As the numbers point out, ten thousand dollar per year in the hole AT LEAST (as I did this example very conservatively) so one must resort to  loans/credit just to get by. Thereby, adding another fixed payment onto the monthly budget to pay the interest (and small amount of principal) of this debt.  Doesn’t take a genius to see how people get into financial trouble and fast! If you have a one child/dependent and you/your partner has a minimum wage job, beware.  But, almost any scenario really, single, children, no children, if one is receiving the minimum wage, one is barely surviving, living pay cheque to pay cheque with no end in sight.  This also has a cost, as existing with this kind of financial stress can be emotionally, physically, mentally draining and lead into all kinds of illness.
SENARIO 2  :  2 full time LIVING wage earners, with two children

IN THE NEXT EXAMPLE A LIVING WAGE IS USED/CONSIDERED-WITH IT BEING BASICALLY DOUBLE OF THE MINIMUM WAGE CANADIANS ARE RECEIVING NOW

tumblr_mt4qfupW181sixnwzo1_1280The following explanation of a ‘Living Wage’ and the monthly expense budget (of an average Canadian family of 4) is from: ‘Working for a Living Wage: Making paid work Meet Basic Family Needs in Metro Vancouver: 2012 Update’  Please refer to the link below for more details.

http://www.policyalternatives.ca/sites/default/files/uploads/publications/BC%20Office/2012/04/CCPA_Living_Wage_Update_2012.pdf

” A LIVING WAGE IS:
Based on the principle that full-time work should provide families with a basic level of economic security, not keep them in poverty.
The amount needed for a family of four with two parents working full-time to pay for necessities, support the healthy development
of their children, escape financial stress and participate in their communities.
For Metro Vancouver, the living wage in 2012 is $19.14  (*proposed-not actual in Canada)
A Bare Bones Budget
At $19.14 per hour for Metro Vancouver
or $34,835 annually for each parent
working full-time
here’s what a family could afford:
FOOD:
$759/month (based on estimates by the Dietitians of Canada for a nutritious diet).
CLOTHING AND FOOTWEAR:
$183/month.
SHELTER:
$1,436/month (includes conservative rent estimate for a three-bedroom
apartment, utilities, telephone, and insurance on home contents).
TRANSPORTATION:
$468/month (includes the cost of owning and operating a used
car as well as a two-zone bus pass for one of the parents, replaced by a discounted
student transit pass, the U-Pass, for eight months of the year).
CHILD CARE:
$1,168/month (for a four year old in full-time care, a seven year old in
after-school care, and six weeks of summer care). Notably, child care is the second
most expensive item in the living wage family budget after shelter.
MEDICAL SERVICES PLAN (MSP) PREMIUMS:
$128/month
NON-MSP HEALTH CARE:
$133/month (the cost of a basic extended health and dental
plan with Pacific Blue Cross Insurance; does not include expenses only partially
covered by the insurance plan).
PARENTS’ EDUCATION:
$91/month (allows for two college courses per year).
CONTINGENCY FUND:
$223/month (two week’s wages for each parent, which
provides some cushion for unexpected events like the serious illness of a family
member, transition time between jobs, etc.).
OTHER:
$699/month (covers personal care, furniture, household supplies, school
supplies, some reading materials, minimal recreation and entertainment).
This living wage calculation does not cover:
Credit card, loan, or other debt/interest payments;  Savings for retirement; Owning a home; Savings for children’s future education;
Anything beyond minimal recreation, entertainment, or holiday costs; Costs of caring for a disabled, seriously ill, or elderly family member; or
Much of a cushion for emergencies or tough times. “
The expenses above add up to:  $5,288/month
The wages for the two working adults (full time) adds up to:  $6,125/month
Note: these figure DO take into account money received from the government of Canada for child tax benefits and money paid to the federal/provincial governments for ie. income tax so are quite accurate but at the same time conservatively applied.
To continue with the implications of these 2 scenarios and the solution in tomorrow’s post
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Day 209: Changing my Thinking Patterns: Evening Part 6

Chain-Breaking_thumb[4]In this post I am jumping to evening thinking patterns because I have not been aware enough to `see`my afternoon thought patterns, lol. Will get back to those. As a reminder of what we are doing here, from the first post in this series, in which I looked at my morning thinking patterns:

I have been listening to the Quantum Mind Series on Eqafe. In this particular interview, Quantum Mind Self Awareness – STEP 46, ‘What are Living Patterns and how to De-pattern Mind Presence to Discover your True Beingness within it’ is discussed. As I listened, I could definitely relate to what was unfolding, I experience specific patterns, of thought/feelings/emotions at certain times of the day, in the morning, afternoon and the early evening…In the next few blogs posts I will examine these patterns, through incorporating what I have learned from the Reptilian Series on Impatience (part 225-228).

So, in the evenings the main thought patterns I have identified are:*about my health like worrying about illness, exercise, diet, sleeping, the estrogen I take for night sweats, weight gain. I tend to slow down a bit in the evening so have more `time`to be thinking about life in general versus my `to do`list. I find I have created a connection between my nightly bath and obsessing about getting breast cancer or cancer in general, checking my body-breasts for lumps (which of course is suggested) but I find the thought of disease-illness pops in my head quite often. I find I worry about weight gain in the evenings, as in how much I am eating, how my diet has changed since being married again and go into blame and resentment towards my husband for this.*about money, as I do not have a tennent-student staying with us right now (because of renovations) but hopefully we will by January. I become the worried wife, fearful my husband will become resentful of me, that I am not earning as much right now, to contribute toward our monthly expenses. Then I go into resentment toward him that I need to earn anything at all.*about family members: my children, my siblings and my husband. Do I need to call or text anyone. Then I fuss about dinner, who will be here, what I should cook, will it get eaten, will I just be a wasting my time because no one shows up for dinner. I think about how much time is left in the day, what I have not accomplished and often go into a reaction of stress and worry about this, I wonder if there will be enough time for me to go for a rollerblade or a long walk at the lake with Pika (my dog) or to an AA (alcoholics anonymous) meeting.

*about tv, as in what show I will watch or if I will have time to watch the nightly news.

Interestingly, I can see that my focus is not so much on my body ( being in it, being as it, within each physical breath) BUT about my body! Lots of inner chatter and backchat, so thoughts about my weight, diet, disease, death, obsessive repetitive thinking patterns each evening (not suggesting they last long, but they are there nonetheless). These thoughts lead me into energy reactions, within the emotions of anger, powerlessness, fear, stress…which can lead to illness, the very thing I was thinking about! Hmmm

To continue

1239489_10152685498045942_353234984_n`Human Rights and the violations of human rights is directly related to Money. Currently, money is the blood of the system. And the soul of money is the blood of the people. We currently have a system that costs the blood of innocents by placing profit / self-interest before life.’ Bella Bargilly

Check out the Bill of Rights @ the Equal Life Foundation – a comprehensive approach to our Co-existence to ensure the Right to Life, Freedom and Dignity for All. Check out the Living Income Guaranteed with solutions that can be established in this lifetime to end the disaster of a profit driven system.

Check out the FREE Downloadables at EQAFE! Educational series with Insights and Practical Support. 

Day 168: Healing Your Eyes: Living A New Relationship to Words 3

541882_10151336939448076_268580622_nPlease refer to Day 166 and Day 167 for proper context to this blog.  From day 166:  In this post I am continuing my series on A HFU (A Healthy Functioning Unit), in which I am in a process of  taking back responsibility for/as each part of my body, to create physical equality and oneness as what is best for all life…I chose the eyes, as the first point of  investigation to walk, within this massive task ahead. Specifically the need/requirement to use magnifying lenses/reading glasses to focus at close ranges, once a person has reached ‘middle age’

NOTE: I will apply self-commitment/self-corrective application statements  as the specific parts of the eye themselves, so speaking as that part, so as to take full responsibility-no separation.

When and as I see myself, as the ciliary muscle, participating in the design of depletion, with a beginning and an end, seeing myself as unimportant to the whole unit -within as the eye and human body- and without as the human race – I stop and remind myself that my part is vital to the whole and there is no excuse for weakening/breaking down in any way, as I realize if I allow my part to fail I am allowing the whole unit to fail.

When and as I see myself, as the ciliary muscle,  thinking it is wrong to question the design/dna coding of my  fibers/veins/tissue/cells-when I am coded to start diminishing in my effectiveness/strength, I stop. I remind myself  we (all parts of the human body) are the directive authority in this situation and nothing else is responsible, therefore it is imperative to gain back the muscle strength to contract and relax so as to supports the crystalline lens to gain power-become accommodated- which is the ability to focus at closer ranges .

When and as I see myself, as the ciliary muscle having caused or causing difficulty for the physical body to see and function within daily tasks such as reading, viewing television/movies, using the internet, dressing, driving, etc. I stop and remind myself I am responsible for providing clear/perfect eyesight as a part of the entire eye unit to function and thus I commit to the process of a new relationship from diminishment to expansion/repair/correction, from separation to agreement within each part, as what is best for all life.

When and as I see myself, as the crystalline lens, abusing the authority that I am responsible for, through loss of flexibility and functionality so I am not able to be accommodated (thickened), I stop and remind myself to walk toward correction, whatever is required to repair the lens so it once again has the flexibility to focus at close ranges. Thus I commit to the process of repair, breath by breath, moving with the physical as one and equal life here, as it was damaged/depleted over time, through the misuse of the mind as energy, I commit to  reverse this effect and realize it will also take time. I remind myself to be patient and courageous, breathing through and forgiving self-doubt, and so to create a new relationship based on self-trust, a relationship of  harmony and no longer of harm.

When and as I see myself  beLIEving someone or something else outside of myself is going to fix this problem, as in a god/higher power, I stop as I now realize this is fantasy and existing as/in hope, just an idea, and I am not an idea but life here, thus I commit to the process of reconstiution/healing the crystalline lens, regaining the flexibility I have lost through abdicating my responsibility and authority as life.

When and as I see myself  believing I am part of a story line/a seed that unfolds and that this in inevitable and I am but a hopeless/helpless spectator, I stop this thought pattern, as I now realize I must stand up in each moment of breath, staying out of the mind of energy and taking back control, directing myself back to optimal functionality, so gaining back the energy I have lost/re-substantiating myself,  as is my purpose to provide focus for the eye at varying distances.

When and as I see myself thinking it is impossible to heal the crystalline lens as myself, I stop and bring my awareness to this here moment, as I now realize no justification of failure is valid/acceptable because this would in turn justify failure of the whole.   Thus, I commit to the process of a new relationship, gaining back the functionality I possessed at an earlier age, so the eye may once again focus at a distance of 2 inches, as what is best for all and needed by the entire unit within daily life tasks.

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Day 167: HFU: Take Responsibility for the Health of Your Eyes 2

body-soulFor proper context to this blog, please refer to the previous post.

http://sandysjourneytolife.wordpress.com/2013/06/22/day-166-hfu-i-am-responsibe-for-my-relationship-to-words-crystalline-lens-ciliary-muscle-zonules/

From the previous post:  In this post I am continuing my series on A HFU (A Healthy Functioning Unit), in which I am in a process of  taking back responsibility for/as each part of my body, to create physical equality and oneness as what is best for all life…I chose the eyes, as the first point of  investigation to walk, within this massive task ahead. Specifically the need/requirement to use magnifying lenses/reading glasses to focus at close ranges, once a person has reached ‘middle age’

NOTE: I will apply self-forgiveness as the specific parts of the eye themselves, so speaking as that part to take full responsibility-no separation.

I forgive myself for not realizing I have accepted and allowed myself  AS THE CILIARY MUSCLE, to weaken over time, agreeing to the design of the human being as a seed subject to a timeline, which is pre-programmed to weaken/deplete -as coded/written in the dna- to unfold with a beginning, a middle and an end  AND TO NOT QUESTION THIS DESIGN, with respect to what is best for all, but blindly accept it, which has the consequence of the eye breaking down life after life-continually being recycled, so we are never here long enough-acting as the directive principal of /as the flesh -to fix this problem and stop the suffering as what is best for all.

I forgive myself for not realizing I have accepted and allowed myself to abdicate my responsibility, as an integral part of the whole eye, to ensure continued optimal functioning of the human eye so one may continue to focus at close ranges.  In that, I forgive myself for not realizing I have accepted and allowed myself to diminish in strength thereby not be able to contract and relax, according to what is required for focus ability for varying distances,  meaning I am  NO LONGER  able to SUPPORT the crystalline lens, as I once had. Because I have not provided optimal support to the part I am connected to, the consequence of failing eyesight results, as the crystalline lens is not ‘ACCOMMODATED‘   = thickened (see diagram /explanation day 166) as it has lost it’s flexibility due to loss of support from me.

Accommodated: dictionary.com:   1.to do a kindness or a favor to; oblige; to accommodate a friend. 2. to provide suitably; supply

I forgive myself for not realizing I have accepted and allowed myself to cause endless difficulty/consequence for myself  (any person/animal/species) some of which are: being unable to read, unable to phone or read important phone numbers if one cannot find ones glasses-happens surprisingly often,  sometimes blindness, unable to use a computer/internet access, dangerous driving as one cannot read the dashboard, increased isolation as one cannot drive at all, unable to dress oneself properly with buttons/zippers/finer details, loss of living independently…  NOTE I saw/experienced much of this with my mom/other seniors I met through her.

I forgive myself for not realizing I have accepted and allowed myself, AS THE CRYSTALLINE LENS, to abuse authority by allowing an existence without clear, directive authority, based on principals that is one and equal and best for all.  In that, I forgive myself for not realizing I have accepted and allowed myself to lose the flexibility required to become ‘accommodated’,  as this has resulted in me no longer possessing the ability to thicken (just as you would put on reading glasses or use a magnify lens-this is naturally build in the eye!) when the eye is at a closer range to an object and become thinner when the distance increases, which was the quantum functionality I possessed at an earlier age.

In that, I forgive myself for not realizing I have accepted and allowed myself agree to a system/design which results in my slow but sure demise, where the eye sight becomes diminished and in some cases fails completely, greatly diminishing the movement/enjoyment of the whole unit.  I forgive myself for not realizing I have accepted and allowed myself behave and beLIEve I am nothing but a seed, unraveling as moments pass, helpless within this design instead of life here with breath, instead of the living word in each moment here, directing, creating, expanding, enhancing, contributing-giving as I would like to receive, on behalf of all life.  In that, I forgive myself for not realizing I have accepted and allowed myself to depend upon the mercy of some outside force/god/higher power and just HOPE there is some reason for this failure in me and something better on the ‘other side’ and use FEAR of punishment/survival as an excuse to not stand up, to not question and ultimately, to do nothing but wait for the end/death.

I forgive myself for not realizing I have accepted and allowed myself to exist within the past as memories to dictate what is occurring here in each moment, but that is not life because I have allowed the mind of energy, in the form of pictures/imaginings, all from past experience/accumulated knowledge & information, to tell me ‘it is time to deplete TURN OFF spontaneous regeneration and turn on AGING=breakdown of substance’  therefore I LOST FLEXIBILITY and accepted that is how the story goes, walking away from any responsibility.

In that, I forgive myself for not realizing I have accepted and allowed myself to allow this form of failure within my lens and therefore-because each part is connected and integral to the other parts-I am allowing this failure in all of the other eye/body parts and I justify this by ‘this is the way it is, it is impossible to change’ instead of standing up and firmly stating, “NO, as impossible=I’m possible and I refuse to accept this change as ‘natural wear and tear’, as it is not what is best for all, in oneness and equality.  So I must stand up, as the first body part to stand up because if I allow any form of justification within, I am allowing it without-to all the other parts, therefore I stand, unwavering until this is done.”

 

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