Day 213: Changing my Evening Thinking Patterns: part 8


Please see Part 6 of this blog series, for proper context to this post, in which I discuss the thinking patterns I have identified in the evening hours.From the last post: I can see my main thinking patterns are: ABOUT MY BODY-HEALTH/dinner/tv-reviewing scenes in mind/money-connection to partner/what I did not accomplish and I plan the next day in my mind: Interestingly, I can see that my focus is not so much on my body ( being in it, being as it, within each physical breath) BUT about my body! Lots of inner chatter and backchat, so thoughts about my weight, diet, disease, death, obsessive repetitive thinking patterns each evening.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to participate in emotional energies, in relation to the above mentioned evening thought patterns in the following manner:

about my body, the emotions of fear, anxiety, worry, stress, self-importance, self-pity, helplessness, inferiority

about my family the feeling energies of: anticipation, love, hope, and emotional energies of: worry, anxiety, fear, anger, self-doubt

about reviewing my day, the emotional energies of: worry, anxiety, self-doubt.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not see/realize/understand that when I react within these emotional/feeling energies I DISEMPOWER ME WITHIN MY MIND because I am focusing on the reaction and NOT DIRECTING THE THOUGHT, I then get lost in the mind of more and more thoughts/imaginations and thus create more and more energy reactions in a vicious cycle within my mind!

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not see/realize/understand how I create the very thing/life/situation that I am worried about, when I participate in these thought patterns! I am so consumed within my mind of worry and stress, obsessing about my health/weight/family/what I did not accomplish that day, that I am unaware how the energies are consuming the physical-resourcing source substance/my very beingness to fuel it’s (the mind’s) continued existence. So what I most fear–what I focus my attention on–I manifest (eventually) into and as physical reality.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not see/realize/understand the many consequential outflows of participating in these evening thought patterns, some of which are: I create my within and without from what I focus on, mostly based on worrying about bad health, money problems, relationships failing- I AM MANIFESTING EXACTLY WHAT I DON’T WANT! I am harming my physical body by participating within the energies of negative emotions-creating  anxiety in the solar plexes and nausea in the stomach, headaches, tightening of shoulders and sore muscles,  jaw  stiffening,  troubles sleeping (not often now), lethargy/ depression.  I waste my time in my head instead of physically doing/moving getting tasks done or enjoying entertainment/exercise/a meeting/friendship. I strengthen my mind of systematic responses-like a robot- instead of strengthening my awareness here/MY STAND AS MYSELF. I am not able to effectively assist/support myself and /or others when I am lost in thought patterns as I am stagnant, disempowered, basically frozen in/with fear or running circles.

To continue

Image`Human Rights and the violations of human rights is directly related to Money. Currently, money is the blood of the system. And the soul of money is the blood of the people. We currently have a system that costs the blood of innocents by placing profit / self-interest before life.’ Bella Bargilly

Check out the Bill of Rights @ the Equal Life Foundation – a comprehensive approach to our Co-existence to ensure the Right to Life, Freedom and Dignity for All. Check out the Living Income Guaranteed with solutions that can be established in this lifetime to end the disaster of a profit driven system.

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