Day 217: Overcome Your Fear of Being Part of A Group: part 3

aHR0cCUzQSUyRiUyRjMuYnAuYmxvZ3Nwb3QuY29tJTJGLUZmUGdWWUlGY2tvJTJGVW0yZm5tZXduLUklMkZBQUFBQUFBQUE5TSUyRk5qWVAzTTQ2RlB3JTJGczMyMCUyRkxvb3NlRW5kczYxMC5qcGc=For proper context to this post you must read Part 1 and Part 2, in which I explore the dynamics around fearing being part of a GROUP.

From the previous post:  ‘… when I listened to the Life Review:  Together we are Strong: 3  there were a number times I experienced the energy reaction of fear, specifically to the phrase:  ‘STAND TOGETHER AS A GROUP’  I felt the fear grip me, I held my breath…’

Solution:

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to react in FEAR to the phrases: ‘STAND TOGETHER AS A GROUP’ and ‘ EACH INDIVIDUALS RESPONSIBILITY to move with the group’ and ‘You must find your individual one point to contribute to the group and future of humanity’

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to react with fear and anxiety to specific words, being: together, group, stand, responsibility, contribute, future.

Within that, I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not see/realize/understand that when I react with fear to words and phrases, in relation to being apart of a group, I disempower me within my mind because I focus on the fear reaction and not directing the thought, when in common sense they are just words/phrases and have no power but the power-meaning I give them, therefore it is me, what I have programmed over time as a reaction that must be addressed. In that, I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not see/realize/understand it is a huge task-to stop the mind-and a long process (at least 7 years) and I require to be kind but diligent with myself, I require to be patient and gentle with myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not see/realize/understand that I fear the commitment, and ultimately the responsibility, that goes along with being part of/moving with a group.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to think, ‘but I could let them down’, and within that the fear of failure, and not seeing/understanding that this is just an excuse to not stand up and do what is best for all (as I am included in that ‘all’) and not just focus on my ‘safe’ escape/cocoon. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to think, ‘I’m not going to make process, I’m too weak’ , and within that the fear of death, as I can see this too is an excuse to not walk/move with the group absolutely and consistently, it is a justification with a self-interested fear attached, as everything is up to me-as it has always been me in each moment who has created my life and who is the deciding factor of my every thought/word and deed.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to think, ‘but I’m not good enough/smart enough/strong enough to be part of this group.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not see/realize/understand that I am living out personalities within these I AM statements and in fact downloading whole programs of these main personalities which I give permission to define me as weak, a failure, tired, too old, too late, average, lazy, not good enough, falling short, a quitter, inferior, doomed instead of re-birthing myself in each moment of breath = life, I let the mind just replay the same old tapes, same old self-definitions with memories/pictures when what is the point really, I already know my pre-programming, who ‘she’ is, so why not create something new with my time here on earth!

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to participate within backchat/inner conversation ‘ in relation to the thought, ‘but I could let them down’, like: I’m not capable as they are/I’m incompetent and I proved it to myself again in the google hangout/I’m not as smart, quick on my feet, I don’t have the vocabulary/phrasing others do, I’m not as articulate or as comfortable as others, I just make a fool of myself, I should let the others do this as they do it better anyway,’

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to engage in my imagination around this thought of ‘But I could let them down’ (which is one of my main personalities as in fear of failure/not good enough): saw a picture of my bed and bedroom-my refuge/escape, saw a picture of the google hangout I participated in- in which I thought the other participants articulated themselves well/had enough knowledge and I fell short.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to participate within backchat/inner conversation ‘ in relation to the thought, ‘I’m not going to make process, I’m too weak’, like: BUT I DON’T KNOW MY ONE POINT! I’m just ok/average at everything. I don’t last/I’m not consistently strong, I fall, I fail. I’m too scattered to know that. What about my nap? I’m so tired.

To Continue

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