Day 225: The Guilty Shopper: Part 3

shopPlease refer to Part 1 and Part 2 for proper context to this post.

From part 1: I have been facing the point of guilt lately, in relation to becoming a shopper… But I keep hearing Bernard’s voice ‘BE CAREFUL WHAT YOU SPEND YOUR MONEY ON’ and from various EQAFE interviews, the beings saying how I will regret my life if I do not focus on improving the lives of all.
Thought: I shouldn’t be spending my time and money this way, I feel so guilty!


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not see/realize/understand how and when I become possessed by images of different stores with regard to our renovation and shopping excursions with my daughter and sister, bringing up emotions of excitement and then guilt, which further distract me/change my focus from what is truly important within my day and so I do not accomplish all of my daily responsibilities.

Why do I do this: because it is easy, it feels ‘good’ I am used to it/it is familiar, versus the diligence of remaining here, in awareness with breath, being aware of each thought/word and deed, which takes effort and dedication, so I must be patient but diligent and when I fall I tend to get frustrated and then go into giving up–extreme thinking patterns, ‘oh fuck it, this is impossible, I’ll never make process, it’s too late for me’ and then I fall into the emotion of self-pity.

When and as I see myself engaging in my imagination with various scenarios/pictures in my mind of shopping with relatives or shopping for our renovation, I stop, I breathe and bring myself back to the physical, as I now see/realize/understand I do not want to take my focus off what is before me because it is distracting and I become less effective with what I am doing in the moment, it is a waste of time to get lost inside the mind, it can be frivolous and cause me to take seriously consumerism/materialsim which is a trap (there is always more to buy!) when I can be focusing on something that has true value like LIG (Living Income Guaranteed) which will assist all beings on earth. I realize I enjoy spending time with my daughter and my sister but I do not require to ‘think’ about it before hand, if I am not concretely planning something, I do enjoy shopping for our renovation, be it another trip to the building store or handles for kitchen cupboards but again I do not need a positive energy experience to motivate me-an excited energy feeling- to know what I have to do -I only require to plan my day and get through my list.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not see/realize/understand when I have taken this point/thought so far that I become possessed within the emotions of: guilt, shame, fear, anxiety, worry And the feelings of: excitement, love, freedom.

slippery_slopeWhen and as I see myself being possessed one of these emotions and/or feelings I stop and breathe, I focus on my breathe until I have stabilized the energies and there exist no movement within me. I remind myself these energies are not necessary, positive or negative, as they are fleeting, come and go and thus are not real. I realize these energies eat away at the physical body, resource substance (our very flesh and bones!) eventually causing disease, they result in tiring me out so I am less productive within my day, I require more sleep so have less time to work and play, they (the emotional and feeling energies) take control as I allow myself to follow them, down the rabbit hole into ever more memories, so living my life from the starting point of the past. I thus commit to live here, in each moment of breath, and not be pushed around/told who I am and how I should behave by emotions.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not see/realize/understand when I have allowed this thought and subsequent emotions, of first excitement and then guilt, to go so far as causing behavioral changes in my human physical body of: anxiety/stress, causing muscle tension/pain in my shoulders and forehead and back of my head, my face and jaw to tighten and stiffen, my stomach to be upset to the point of it effecting my digestion, my sleep to be disturbed, extreme tiredness, an overall heaviness and gloom.

When and as I see myself having gone so far with ‘the guilty shopper’ character that I am causing behavioral changes in my body I stop, I breathe and bring myself back down to earth, feel my feet on the ground, out of the mind. I remind myself I am indeed a physical being and to give my attention to what is real before me, which is being in my body moving/doing/working/socializing whatever and it does not require having my head in the clouds but in reality.

I now understand I have given my mind consciouness systems (conscious, sub-conscious, unconscious) all of my attention all my life, unaware of what I was doing, but now I see I rarely notice my heartbeat or how my skin feels, my body is alive-billions of alive cells–which have intelligence, communicate with each other, have awareness as individual and as a unit. Thus these billions of cells require my focus, respect and attention, no wonder the body eventually gives out! We’re always lost in space in the mind! And we blame the body saying it has ‘betrayed us’ or ‘given up’ but who betrayed who?! I now realize/see/understand I have never really lived/been a real physical being but only ever lived as a mind system. I commit to this process of birthing myself as life in the physical.

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