From Part 1: “ I have been working on my Dip timelines, in which I am seeing how I fear speaking up/standing up for myself/ saying ‘no’ in family situations so as not to cause family conflict. I actually resist conflict because I feel inadequate to ‘handle it properly’…This is no longer acceptable to me as it is my responsibility to myself and others to stay out of energy (emotions and feelings) and simply answer self-honestly in the moment.” From this excerpt, we can see both the PROBLEM AND THE SOLUTION, the solution being a process, which I will walk here.
Thought: ‘What are they being so mean about? In common sense they don’t need the money and it was-I specified- an idea/suggestion, ‘what do you think?’ I stated. A simple ‘no, just send us the cheque’ would have sufficed. Damn, I have to see them next year at L’s wedding (my daughter) and probably at a shower or two. How will I handle this? I’m so angry at them!’
When and as I see myself thinking/believing/perceiving that others are- or should be- aware/understand what I have experienced I stop and breathe. I remind myself to turn the finger of blame back to myself and look at what is going on within me, as my self-responsibility, in reviewing do I understand myself/am I fully aware of what I have experienced or am I conjuring up memories that have been changed over time to suit my needs? I realize that I am not always going to get the response from people I desire, as people (my ex’s family in this case) will respond according to their own ideas and ways of doing things. Therefore, if another does not respond/participate in the way I had desired, I will support myself by leaving it and not judging another/having expectations and then reacting in disappointment. I thus commit to change me.
When and as I see myself participating in the mind consciousness system’s design of comparisons-within the polarities of inferior/superior, success/failure and confidence/insecurity- I stop and breathe. I realize that these polarities result in building up more anger/resentment within me. I no longer allow energies to control my decisions and communications . I realize that trying to create myself as an idea means that I am tunnel visioned and thus miss what is here in every breath. I remind myself to stick to physical reality around this issue, I owed them money and I paid them back, period, so I am free to enjoy myself when we are all together at the wedding!
When and as I see myself diminishing myself and my ex’s family, by separating us into limiting characters/personalities, which are based on the past, I stop and breathe. I realize these characters in little boxes are based on the past, are memories controlling me within my mind participation, I can say ‘no’ when these pictures/imaginings arise in my mind. I simply allow myself to continue with my own self-responsibility and delete reactions as they come up. I realize that building up anger in the face of repeated patterns only frustrates me. I no longer allow energies to control my decisions and communications. I make sure, when seeing them at wedding festivities, I am self-honest in my expression here, enjoy the event and their company.
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